Life Sucks

Really worked up today and hope writing about it will help.

off late i keep saying to my self "tomorrow is yet another day".I have an online exam to give and some other hifi education shit to get done and send for evaluation to Geneva with in the next few days and this will make or break me in the art education world.... and with the play around the corner and the exhibition hanging on my head and mom screaming that i am not painting enough or how i am detected.. i am in this really sad zone. i actually cried as in really cried yesterday i haven't wept for a good few years but last night i just broke down with the pressure of multi tasking and not being the best. As in i realised when i do something its really important for me to excel .....I did not know that about me.

Any way with puffy swollen eyes after, 3 rounds of vodka, a lots of cigarette later( thank god there was no dope around) i did sleep only to get up a few hours later to my annoying neighbours hemash rashamiya music! man can life get any worse... thank god it will all be over by the 15th and then i will have only the Puna exhibition to think about....

I have got to run for a rehearsal now...and here is what i want who ever reads this to do - pray for me i really need it!!