Friday, March 14, 2014
Who am I now!
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
"..... my birthday"
lesson from my 31 birthday:
• Am really fortunate to have such a loving family… and it nice to be every body’s sweetheart.
• my colleague the biggest khaooos of the first order, I mean even before they greeted me they started demanding for the cake. Like really!!!
• I enjoy studying, even at 31…
• My childhood crush who is one of my closest friends, is no longer talking to me. He is still sulking over me teasing him the last time he was in India (5 months back…) like really! we have been friend for over 15 years and he is so pissed, over nothing and dint call me, we have always called, no matter which part of the world we r in. all I got was a stupid FB wall post!!!
• I am really thrilled about all the people who did remember my birthday : )
• and the most important I dint feel bad about manav not calling me,I guess I have got over him
over all I not sure how I have fared… but I did have a super day.
want to thank the universe for loving me : )
Friday, September 3, 2010
Babbling about nothing
Just as I was planning to quit everything and go live in the hills…. Probably even settle down with the good man who is waiting for me…. I get this mail from the IB head office and its informing me about all this hi-fi stuff and I wonder why ME!!
Do you some time feel you are in this place and you don’t really belong there.. I am sort of feeling like that now. Like I have to act intellectual, like I meant to come across as someone with a High IQ (which I do have on paper.. but I don’t know how)
So while reading this mail and going through all the big jargon on education, all that is going in my head is how sick I am of bending to teach children literally (I know it sounds kinky) but I am really sick of bending down and teaching kids… and thats why I feel like quitting. I know its lame, (probably the reason I am writing about it no one ever reads this blog anyway….)
Getting back to where I started, the mail has made me realize about the number of my colleague who would love be in my shoe. And I want to give at all away just for a back ace…. Enough of babbling and dreaming of doing nothing. I have to get my act together and start working again just because i am possessive about my SHOES ; )
Monday, May 31, 2010
jump
Monday, April 5, 2010
been ill
Its been a while now that I have been ill and in bed…. And obviously I am sick of it : )
As I lay in bed, getting 6- IV antibiotic a day, drips and liquid diet, there is nothing I can do but sit think…. There is so much I want to write but don’t the strength today (I went on FB before)…may be tomorrow I will have more energy, and I shall share my thoughts.
Any way if you r reading this I think u know me, so please send me some good wishes, so that I am off this bed kicking ass again…soon
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
comfortably numb
I have this really blank feeling today… as in, its like I don’t feel any more. Life is good and I did everything the way it should be, got up early did yoga went to work and had a great productive day with absolutely no daydreaming, got back went for a run in the evening, painted for few hours, got a decent amount of work done. But still there is no real emotion. It’s as though I am programmed to do this. Well there was a feeling I was tripping while painting. As in I actually feet I was high on drugs or something. so I guess my zone is comfortably numb and in am odd way i miss my emotional drama. cause i guess it made me feel alive....
Monday, December 21, 2009
Just read this poem today. It kind of just fell onto lap literally.
As in I went to the library and picked up this book on photography, (am prepping for my shoot with a really good photographer on Thursday), and this poem was scribbled on a piece of paper just laying there waiting for me to pick it up and read… I think my guides have sent it down for meWaiting
Serene, I fold my hands and wait,
Nor care for wind, nor tide, nor sea;
I rave no more 'gainst time or fate,
For lo! my own shall come to me.
I stay my haste, I make delays,
For what avails this eager pace?
I stand amid the eternal ways,
And what is mine shall know my face.
Asleep, awake, by night or day,
The friends I seek are seeking me;
No wind can drive my bark astray,
Nor change the tide of destiny.
What matter if I stand alone?
I wait with joy the coming years;
My heart shall reap where it hath sown,
And garner up its fruit of tears.